Thursday, June 3, 2010

Golden Dreams



Where have all the years gone, and so quickly?
These thoughts cross my mind every once in awhile,
especially now as I've had my 63rd birthday.
If I could, would I go back to an earlier time, back
to my teen years or my college days?

If I'd had a way of foretelling the future, I may
have done a few things differently, change my
direction a bit, but then again...
If I'd fallen in love at 19 with the handsome Italian
fella living next door, whom I felt was in love with me
at the time , I'd no doubt have a houseful of kids.
But, I might also be divorced—since that was his
status a few years ago, and still might be.


If I'd been more motivated to finish college and
get a degree, I'd be teaching English Comp right now.
When I'd moved to San Francisco in 1970, I was working
at a local store. From the entrance I heard,
“Nancy, what on God's earth are you doing working here?”
My jaw dropped.

It was my former college professor, Jean Wilkinson,
who'd had very high aspirations for me.
She'd kept many of the works I'd written, and thought
I would've pursued a writing career, at the very least.
Presently, I'm still writing: short stories and romantic
poetry,
as well as this blog.

If I'd followed my parents to Oregon instead of moving to
the Bay Area, I would've never met my husband, a handsome
airline captain,and had our two children.
Nor would I have had the opportunity to meet Charlton Heston
or Bing Crosby who were customers of mine one day.

We now live in South West Florida, which has changed the
direction of my life. I'm a freelance photographer, living a dream
I've always had--sequestered in the back of my mind.
I'm an artist, too.

Life is often convoluted.
You're never sure what each day is going to bring.
Ah, to be a kid again...?
Not a chance.












3 comments:

GutsyWriter said...

You look great and as a photographer I'm sure you're doing what you love. I don't regret my past choices. I think I would be divorced with a French guy. I know this is a generalization, but I'm talking about the ones I knew in France.

Holly said...

ahh the "what if" game...I often wonder about that also. over all I believe we are where we are suppose to be ...what a wild adventure life is!

tikno said...

Life is often convoluted ?? Hmm.... not really. Just enjoy the life because the life itself is beautiful.

Sometimes... my mind also flying elsewhere even go deep inside my past time. Those were the days that saved nicely in our brain.

Perhaps you also interested in reading my musings at:
http://love-ely.blogspot.com/2008/08/mother-and-child-essay.html